| 08 | 17 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>22nd | Post |
I've been really into Star Wars lately and have been listening to the OSTs while at the gym or practicing coding.
Anyways, I coded a slot machine game and it's actually really fun. It's mostly vibe coded so it's probably not the most efficient slot game but
it works :) It's all pretend currency btw dw.
spinny game
I got a job and im starting tomorrow. I'm kinda excited but also kinda not idk.
I have a lot of part time work experience but it will def be a different culture and different expectations etc.
Im hoping for the best I guess. Everyone is innocent until proven guilty.
| 08 | 11 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>21st | Post |
people be sleeping on the intermediate violin solos
like Oskar Rieding's op 35 violin concerto I should learn more pieces fr. Maybe I'll make a list. I just want the freedom to be able to play what I want.
Apparently I'm about 7-8 in the abrsm levels so I can probably play anything with a little practice, I'm just bad at practicing and
being patient with difficult passages. so....... >:
I was weened off the Suzuki method around book 6 so I was always curious if I could play beyond that.
Also Suzuki method students are notoriously bad at sight reading, which.... Its something I
can work on :>. Mostly in the upper positions like 4th - 9th positions.
Also bowing techniques like Colle and Sautille
- Handel Halvorsen Passacaglia for violin and viola
- Joseph Achron "Hebrew Melody"
- Lalo Symphonie Espagnole
- Tchaikovsky serenade melancolique
- Veracini Sonata in E minor 2nd and 4th movement (i think its in suzuki vol 8)
- Allegro Bach sonata bwv 1023
| 08 | 10 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>20th | Post |
What did I do today? i made lemon basil chicken for lunch :>
and watched true crime videos
and then tried to fix the wifi to no avail
| 08 | 7 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>19th | Post |
i need to do some more concrete stuff for my future maybe.
not sure what though
maybe i will make a giant bjd doll idk with what
clay? Im afraid of it looking a bit rough though. I suppose I could maybe upgrade it to plastic later on when I have the resources
for now, maybe I will gather reference material and make a diagram...
| 08 | 6 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>18th | Post |
i started watching a lot of star wars
I hadn't watched all 9 movies in a sitting, and I pretty much watched all of it in 4 days
prob couldnt do that if i was employed lol
idk what i want to do tbh, i guess i just gotta believe my vision and run with it maybe.
| 08 | 4 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>17th | Post |
i sometimes wonder what its like to be a part of a tribe or group or something.
Not just a fandom or nuclear family unit-- like a real African tribe or like a hippy commune
Maybe in this day and age where individuality is so linked towards consumerism its not beneficial to
push that kind of lifestyle. I just feel like we don't experience the same amount of individual impact on
community that our ancestors might have had, and it causes an empty feeling
especially when corporations try to mask it with like company awards or raises or promotions
because it doesn't feel real, like we can't see the consequences of raising some numbers
idk just a thought.
I just wish all of our creature comforts didn't really so heavily on being connected to the grid.
Like if we made renewable energy so easy to produce it can be done on a smaller scale, as well as water desalination and sanitation, etc.
If that was established, people wouldn't have to depend so much on a centralized system maintained by the government.
Maybe if there was more incentive to get people to startup their own renewable energy farms, and if they could be made more efficient and less harmful to the
environment... Maybe making solar panel maintenance a required school subject? Or even electrical board programming, if it was a compulsory school subject that
would be interesting.
| 07 | 30 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>16th | Post |
did lots of things today, v productive...
cucumber with miso sauce is tasty
i need to find another way to destress thats not running but is excercise, maybe like walking around the mall? idk
I made a sticker sheet to help me keep track of things as well. Maybe i will start practicing violin again. I need a goal piece though, and maybe a concert or competition to work towards.
Also maybe a stress coping thing like cooking, drawing, learning something new, reading or something like that
| 07 | 26 | 2025 | afternoon |
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| >>>15th | Post |
applying to jobs
updated my linked in
I applied to a lot of jobs, like at least 20?? Maybe.
idrc if i live in the US or japan, as long as i can support myself so i've been applying in both places
i really wish i had a decent pc though so i could do all my creative stuff like 3d modeling and have faster efficient workflow.
I think its really cool that people can make and sell vr avatars because its kinda like niche, and ig people use it to have fun, and its
kinda still looked down upon idk how to describe it. but making money like that is so cool to me, at least more than a corporate job, and maybe it can
be lucrative too idk.
also I see people dancing with custom outfits that are floaty or glowy and like impossible to make irl
You can see I am into waay too many things, which gets me distracted ig but I feel like when I hyperfixate on one things, I start to hate that thing and just focus on the parts
that I hate... or maybe I get frustrated because I'm not obscenely good at it or don't know how to become good at it. Maybe I should learn how to get really good at things fast. Maybe theres a class on that. lol according to google ai (ughh i hate ai)
identify weaknesses
set goals
time management
eliminate distractions
active recall
spaced repition
practice with variation
interleaving
immersion
teaching
actively seeking out mentors and feedback
learn from mistakes
find motivation, celebrate progress, believe in yourself, growth mindset
What I need to work on is definately
eliminating distractions
and
finding the dedication to keep practicing things.
Maybe I have an aversion to practicing things bc of certain traumatic memories in childhood lol...
Also, I tend to get really stressed because I have high standards and am impatient. Also, I feel like my environment has to be perfect in order to get the best practice, which probably isn't
true.
Or I have no means of controlling my environment rn due to financial reasons and I dont want to be seeen as selfish (even though its prob what I need to do. )
I want to be able to be proud of myself for being dedicated to one thing without hating that thing. Ig maybe talking to friends and family, prioritizing sleep and exercise while not becoming too anxious about it and trying to stick to a schedule maybe... Maybe im overthinking this whole thing as well :/ I'll just try not to get stressed about it in the future.
I wish I knew what I could get better at though. Like usually the best things are kind of caught like song carried by a breeze, and that moment for finding my path has never found me. One of the reasons I started this blog was I guess to try to find that breeze maybe. And its nice to lay out my thoughts here since I don't really have many people I can talk to extensively about whatever around me.
But it still remains that I haven't found that breeze yet, but that doesn't mean I won't keep looking.
I'll keep learning and sharing my pov of everything here and maybe it will help someone else find their song in the breeze.
Maybe its because my thoughts are choppy, like one moment its abstract and the next moment its very analytical. It's kind of awkward to read...
.... ok well going on google and self diagnosing myself isn't really going to help me find what I'm looking for but it seems I might have some thought disorders idk.
Here were some of the treatments to thought disorders like schizophrenia...
Practice structuring, summarizing, and feedback methods
Repeat and clarify the core issues and main emotions that the patient is trying to communicate
Gently encourage patients to clarify what they are trying to communicate
Ask patients to clearly state their communication goal
Ask patients to slow down and explain how one point leads to another
Help patients identify the links between ideas
Identify the main affect linked to the thought disorder
Normalize problems with thinking
Maybe I will make a list for I want to do currently:
2. Get my own dedicated workspace
4. Get good pc
5. lose weight and be healthier
3. Decide where I want to live and find a job
6. Learn to drive
1. Start making more YT videos and content
Maybe that is good for now. I will probably number it according to priority.
Maybe in the future I want to like make a music video (like art and music), design a 3d model and choreograph a dance to use with the 3d model, learn how to build better stories,
Maybe I can combine the concepts I wrote here to make something lol. I want to make the 3d model character design just really pretty though, like it doesn't need to have any thought or lore, just no brain pretty with flashy neon lights and floaty parts.
| 07 | 24 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>14th | Post |
hot day
it was a hot day today. i prob took two naps and didnt get anything done (also i need to get groceries tomorrow)
maybe i will also update my linked in.
| 07 | 23 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>13th | Post |
No internet for a day
ngl i probably needed it. Need to keep up the job application grind though. Job hunting is like trying to find a unicorn these days...
and my siblings aren't even trying so I feel kind of lonely and dumb for trying like why am I the only one being responsible.
I'm going to move far away if I ever find a decent job, at least for a while until they get themselves together. Also I feel rlly dumb for trying to find a job in japan bc of the growing
anti foreigner sentiment everywhere. People click their tongue at me for just existing lmao. Im a walking ragebait... idk how I feel about that. If I can just find some back end office job or remote position than I don't even need to go out there and show my face. I wonder if this is how Anne Frank felt when the Nazis came to power. Maybe once there are government mandated segregated public spaces or internment camps I will think about moving elsewhere. I wonder where the most welcoming place is that doesn't have a high crime rate. Maybe like the European countryside?? idk. It's not like I can detatch part of my culture either.
I think It's really mean that rich people try to turn poor people against each other for dumb reasons like race or culture so that we don't unite against them. And people let themselves keep the wool over their eyes.
| 07 | 21 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>12th | Post |
I did an interview. I think people hate me idk why.
Also I need to make another website for my brother but with like nav bars and payment integrations and stuff... idk how to do that yet though.
| 07 | 20 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>11th | Post |
I made a practice planner/ schedule sheet. I might make more. These are kind of fun.
I made some more (but for math :3)
What else kind of worksheets should I make?
| 07 | 19 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>10th | Post |
I want to start something but it just seems like everything moves at the speed of light with all of the AI tools coming out that "boosts productivity" that is needed to stay relevant in order to make money.
What is something only I know how to do and can market it well? Maybe like a cute violin instruction website or practice planner sheet??
Although it also feels like thats not what the majority of people are interested in... idk but maybe if its cute enough more people would want to use it...
It just seems that my interests are all so disjointed, and don't mesh well with the skills I already have and what I think would improve society doesn't reward people as much financially as things that are already established that reward people financially like owning and renting out land, dealing with financial things like consulting, b2b middle management stuff etc... I hate capitalism so much. I don't even buy a lot of things. I would rather invest it towards things like my self improvement or making my living environment better. Like I hate buying random Chinese kitchy stuff and plastic merch like pop mart figures.
I think being marketable as a human is the only way to get funds from the wealthy, and its a hard skill to obtain. I don't even have very good basic people skills. Maybe if I just believe in a certain philosophy enough, it will make me more charismatic?? idk Like becoming more unfazed, reacting less, subtly influencing decisions, cultivating uniqueness. Learning the art of persuasion, ethos pathos logos, (like im an expert in this area or have experience with something, statistics seem to show that such and such, you should care because this is how you will be personally affected)
I also think surrealism might be good, just taking some elements of it though bc thinking too hard about that kind of concepts gives me a headache.
I have to cultivate my image as a rebel, muse maybe...
Maybe its like I don't fully believe in my society to support the best life for me, esp bc I have been outcasted my whole life, so I have to go my own way and build the life I want myself by appealing to those above me, as well as earn the trust of the collective society. Is it selfish, maybe... but I've been outcasted for my whole life so I also don't really care.
| 07 | 18 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>Ninth | Post |
I applied to some jobs, ran for like 25 minutes,
I kind of want to get better at makeup, and probably lose some weight... idk
Also I should probably study more kanjis with anki, also get my cancer screenings,...omg so much to do
For the kanjis, Im probably gonna just read about shared office spaces bc I think its an interesting business concept.
Maybe I will link the anki deck here when I am finished.
I think reading about coworking spaces makes me realize I want to be able to work in places like this with my app or something, although it seems so far away because I have so many things I want do. Maybe if there was a way to combine all of them, or learn how to just polish the best skills I have that I like and Im good at, and it has societal value.
Like I want to make an app, but I haven't been studying much swift either, (also I need a better computer to do all the app development I want to do)
It would be so cool to have a shared coworking space that is like themed, like an intentional third space, that would be cool. Im not sure how well that concept would carry over to the US though. Just like a cafe but themed, and people can stay there for a long period of time, and they like rent it by the day or month or something. It would be a subscription service. All the service can be done through an app too.
In the end , it has to be a business that I believe in, and that I would get value out of. maybe like social media SEO optimizing services, or social media consultant.... an app that shows you the best path to get something out of a crane machine, (ie where to make the claw land etc) A personalized siet manager, (like log your meals for a week and the AI tells you what you need to eat to lose weight while informing what nutrients you need and where to get them) A device that seamlessly incorporates little apps like the one I mentioned before, so you dont have to constantly go back on your phone to log stuff, idk
A room scanner that analyzes what you want to get rid of and where and how to get rid of it. Like it gives you steps, and pushes cleaning services that make a contract with the app.
Or an app where you disclose all your computer needs and returns a list of hardware you can get that meets your technology requirements. (like you want to be able to stream, use blender, use video editing software etc and the app gives you the specs and list of parts for a PC. or if your a business, it gives you an approximation for the number of server racks you need or something.
Or an app that scans your body and reccomends you trendy clothes that fits your body shape. Maybe it uses ai to take pictures you feed it from pinterest and puts it on you in 3d and finds stores that sell it, or something similar, or have it directly delivered
Or something that analyzes your personality and gives you job reccomendations. idk...
Maybe a cosmetic procedure app where you tell it what you want to do (or ask it what it reccomends by doing a full body scan) and it searches the internet and uses your location to find the best clinics to get your procedures done.Maybe when combined with other apps, it will organize all your outings and plan the day for you (like have a walk in the park after the procedure and recommend nice cafes etc (it is stressful to get procedures done so making it a self care day I think is very smart)
Or even maybe media or book reccomendations to expand your knowledge where its lacking (like if you want to become a super mysterious philosopher, what books should you read that you would be able to read bc it resonates with your personality)
Maybe something that organizes all your bills etc (this probably exists, but just to have everything in one place and see all the deposits and coming and going of funds would be very helpful, also it could connect to your day planner app, and if you have to like go to the post office or bank to get something done, it could reccomend you combine the trip with something else or reccomend fun outings that are nearby or on the way.
I dont think things that replace critical thinking is particularly what humans want though, I think its the freedom of creativity and expression that many people are drawn to.
Like Minecraft creative mode. Or the reason why I made this blog, is to just be able to spout out the things I'm thinking about without holding back.
There's also the issue with security though. Some people will definately hold back on apps that use location or need a lot of personal information to work.
I wish there was a way to erase my digital footprint as well. I just know mine is probably egregious due to applying to all the jobs and all of the job boards have issues with data mining etc. I wish I don't have to apply to job boards.
That is my number one issue. Like I really want to go back to newspaper or like physical bulletin board style hiring. Idk why people don't like me working for them as well. I am super quiet and have RBF maybe...
One employer told me she didn't think people with long education histories were good workers. Maybe I agree with her. My head is way too in the clouds. But I'd rather my head in the clouds than be mindlessly carrying out the job like a robot. I don't want to be a slave to the elite. I don't want my children to be the slaves of the children of the elites. We really need another revolution tbh.
Why I want take power of the people out of the hands of the elites.
Human capital shouldn't be able to be bought so easily just with the seduction of money. We need to be more close knit as a society and not let the rich just wonder off into space with money. In the end, money is just numbers on the screen. It's basically like how birds pick up sticks for their nests. People will throw money at absurd things if it entertains us slightly or gives us a quick surge of dopamine and why does this same money get used to pay for our caregivers and other important occupations that will never turn a profit?
Maybe if we establish something that is more valuable than money, the power dynamic will shift. Like value of friendship or quality ideas, like having a thought buddy that you resonate with. It's not something that can be easily bought... maybe anyways. Rich people do tend to value charismatic freethinkers though (its the only thing I took from going to a private school and growing up in a wealthy neighborhood)
People like to have their luxurious, useful, unique things that signals status especially through platforms like TikTok or Instagram, where people can show off how large, or fancy, or gold plated, diamond encrusted, expensive their things are, and people will watch it.
The thing is though, a golden jewel encrusted glove isn't useful to someone who doesn't have hands. And I think most people aren't aware of what they need or want even, hell they don't know their own potential. I sure don't. Maybe the value lays in steering people and supporting people to have the best chance of exploiting their innate talents and abilities (which I do believe people have)
One thing is for sure though social media clouds up the path for most people to live up to their potential when its littered with clout chasing for the sake of clout chasing. People say they value authenticity and of course people are going to be excited to ride a Ferrari, but how about the excitement that comes from unveiling a truly unique invention that helps all of humanity?
Maybe we need to relearn what authenticity is. Not just a five second authentic reaction, but the power of a collective and united group with a purpose to change things because we are "authentically" dissatissfied with our current living standards like when unions helped bring about federal labor standards. (Although I think we can do better than that)
Also there needs to be a cultural shift, like people need to try to be better humans globally because we aren't respecting each other, and mutual respect is the thing that leads to change for the better. I sometimes feel like we are an octopus eating ouxr own tentacles when we start wars and other crimes against humanity. Although I do empathize with how some cultures view Western culture and capitalism as parisitic, commodifying and causing them to consume themselves by exploiting their uniqueness so they can build more tall concrete boxes filled with plastic furniture. I sometimes think of capitalism as a basil flower, because once it starts blooming, the stalk starts to turn woody starting from the base, and the leaves turn bitter and slowly kills the plant from the root up, like how it kills the base of cultures.
Is there a way for capitalism to not be a vile parasite? I'm not sure. But for one, I think its shifting away from viewing money and commodities as the ultimate status indicator, which is difficult because humans love numbers. If we somehow are able to place value on making all of society a bit more comfortable, just being more inclusive in general when we are making decisions. Understand that most people are pretty simple. We just want to be seen, loved, we like food, sleep, sex, we want stability and a loving family with friends, and not everyone wants to clout chase all the damn time.
Also another thing I learned growing up around rich people, is that rich people usually justify their wealth horde by saying its a way for them to create value for society since they know how to make jobs, and the poor people don't know how to do that because poor people are too busy mindlessly scrolling on social media, eating, shitting and reproducing and are too full of themselves to know how to make value for society.
I don't think that is true. While some people might intrinsically be better at business than others and employs 100 people at a shitty office desk job, that doesn't necessarily mean they add more value to society than someone who works as a nurse and has the best patient care in the world and heals 100 patients giving them another chance at life.
The ability to create jobs do not equal value for society
Maybe we need to have AI start analyzing the aspects of each countries culture that helps society the best and find ways to implement it globally. Its definately a delicate process though, becuase some things might contraindicate each other, like how American freedom to dress however one wants is considered good but in Muslim countries it isn't, so it would need to be a thorough and deep analysis on cultures, and a new global constitution with societal expectations born from this deep analysis might be able to be formed. If it is good for society, wouldn't it be accepted by everyone? The shared goals can be created from analyzing people's dreams and aspirations shared online, while local geography and resources are taken into consideration,
| 07 | 17 | 2025 | Afternoon |
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| >>>Eighth | Post |
I learned today that I like finding easy solutions to my problems.
Also I have panic attacks when people who I think have a negative opinion on me come to visit.
Music is kinda fun when I can make it sound good. Also I might be sick.
I hope coworking spaces can become more affordable... also I kind of want to join one, but I'm not really working so...
Maybe they will take me if I say I make online courses or something. I want to make an online course, but I dont really want to host it on Skillshare
or any other platform, maybe Patreon?.... I could make course videos with downloadable worksheets or quizzes?
Maybe personalized feedback to higher tier patrons? Also I'm not sure what kind of course content to sell...
I could do art courses, I could teach violin maybe... I would need filming equipment regardless.
Maybe I'll try making a course with an easier topic like art, character design something like that.
Anyways, below is a test quiz widget.
I wonder if I can make a course long enough with just character design??... Maybe I will need to do some research myself.
Possibly looking at a lot of other people's portfolio, maybe I need to put something about AI too.... Something like, many might find they can incorporate AI into any
part of their process but need to understand that whatever they make is iterative and not creative, which creativity is something the industries look for anyways.
It's hard to teach creativity to people, and also I don't think creativity should really be taught anyways. Maybe suggestions when one has art block? Idk.
What kind of parts should a course have anyways... And it needs a concrete topic, or like what its gonna teach that is unique and what skills and knowledge it will impart on the participant.
Like "How creative character design will shape the world"
And it will have good examples from Hazbin hotel, pokemon maybe like the evolution, twisted wonderland and examples of lazy character design, and why its bad for the world... lol
Also I want to bring up the interview with the Code Geass director I mentioned a few posts ago, in that he mentioned Western animation largely doesn't have political messages, or isn't reflective of society. And this is disappointing for me because I think a job of artists, while it sounds corny (and I would have absolutely hated hearing myself saying that when I was younger) the longer I live, the more I see how popular art and media influences people, I see how there needs be more responsibility for artists and big companies to make positive, creative reflections on society in their media.
It's part of the reason I think the latest Pixar, Disney movies etc haven't taken off because they are afraid to make any sort of political statement in their works. And some "political issues" people think they can sprinkle into their works like diversity, LGBTQ issues to make it appealing to an audience isn't the magical ingredient to make it pop off. Idk how I would handle it to be fair... When they have such a huge customer base. It's one reason why I think the diversification of media and fandoms are a good thing in a way, but large budgets do tend to birth masterpieces that a lot of people are attracted to. If I was a director of like Disney, idk I would want it to have cultural relevence but maybe not to the point where it alienates other people. I think a big reason why movies like "Kpop Demon Hunters" popped off is because there is a large Asian community that is supportive of that kind of artstyle and the culture represented in that, so they put all their effort into making it appeal to that fanbase.
Maybe I would try to find some kind of way to bring the D and D, fantasy people and the Asian kind of cute, kpop, japanese style together. I see like MTG or the fortnite
Hatsune Miku collab, and I think its a start but
Idk it just still seems like it could be built upon. Or even the latest trend of isekais and how the characters have classes like in western high fantasy works. I think there is a tasteful way to bring it together, but its really hard because western audience tends to prefer more complex, highly detailed illustrations while the Asian audience likes cute, stylized stuff.
(of course there are exceptions but...)
Maybe I would make it about a created utopia, a society that works with its own rules, but has roots in actual history, like if the current president creates a caste system and the elites rule a slave population that has no power since they have no ways of fighting...
or an ultimate form of someone who is progress motivated (think wake up at 5 am and start exercising, drinks protein shakes and supplements, is a 6 figure programmer who works at top tech company) falls in love with a virtual idol/ streamer who rots in bed for the rest of their day.
Maybe a story about isolation and technology would be interesting, but it would need fantastical elements too maybe, but not isekai...
Maybe they meet in virtual reality and the programmer starts obsessing over them while they dance and do their idol activities in the vr space.
The idol does many things such as dance, sing, fights virtual monsters, gives heartfelt speeches, meet and greets
They live in a world where earthquakes, flooding happen regularly do to earth being hit by an asteroid which threw the tilt off which caused mass devastation and population collapse.
Also worshipping idols like oshikatsu is highly looked down upon bc some people things its what let to the downfall of their world
Most people live in ocean pods and theres one land area where barriers have been erected to keep servers dry and running so people are technologically connected.
the programmer happens to be someone who lives on the barricaded island to help keep the servers running but finds a plan to kill off most of the population bc surviving has become "too difficult without land" Most people have a large percentage of their body filled with microplastics causing many babies to be born sick, and most to die. Those who survive have short life expectancy.
Many who are born long enough to be concious opt to become connected to a virtual reality for most of their lives.
AI robots will farm and do many things for them on the ocean pods.
In the end the protagonist finds a serum that melts microplastics into a usable organic material and lowers the ocean level so there is a bit more land.
Maybe the stories idea is that the protagonist was able to be a net possible in society despite doing idol worship bc thats where he found inspiration. Or the bigger moral is that diverse thoughts is a net positive on society.
Also, maybe he has to bring down the leader of his company bc they were trying to assassinate his idol for breaking the law of being an idol, but he killed the leader instead and announces to the world about his serum, but the servers get shut down bc he doesnt know the master key (only the leader knows) so he has to travel the entire world to find his idol, who he finds has already passed away or is on the verge of death. Also right before he finds the idol, he gets informed that a lab is willing to replicate it but he uses the spare one to try and save his idol. Also it turns out the idol was working as a spa person but was thrown in jail (maybe like a dali painting, or the endless stairs thats all white, or like an italian villa thats all white (somewhere that looks like a utopia maybe like a grass lawn with a garden with white walls) after people found out who she was.
Also it turns out that the spa/ temples have to do with the formula of the serum, something to do with the pattern of the light in the ceilings, and diffusion off the walls.
Some details:
- I want it to have an overall hopeful tone
- When passing through areas with intense heat, and the radiation is a lot, people wear black body suits to prevent them from too much radiation exposure
- People have found a way to replace most plastics with a compostable material, but the microplastics still remain until the protagonist finds a serum.
- Cheap and efficient desalination method exists
- Most things are made from a light illusion, like food is acutally all made from a gray substance that people can survive on but technology is used to make it look
more appetizing.
- There are floating hotels and spas that act as kind of spiritual worship centers, and they have cool lighting.
- Everyone is mixed race, and speaks one language (made up language) , there is no concept of race except the variations in looks. Class is decided through ability and mental fortitude.
- The first human he tests the serum on is the organization leader's daughter, who doesnt know the protagonist killed her father. She follows the protagonist and has a small dog.
So anyways that was an exercise in creating a story that has politics and is relevent to modern issues, maybe has a bit of call to action. Idk if I'll make anything of it and it has a lot of holes, but its out there now. I can probably make a billion more of these stories... so top artists at Disney don't have an excuse when yours truly unemployed rando on the internet can make a better story than you.
| 07 | 15 | 2025 | evening |
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| >>>Seventh | Post |
Today was one of those chronically online days... vrchat is a scary place. Also I was working on my last blog post.
I might make a navigation bar so people can easily click through my blog.
| 07 | 13 | 2025 | morning |
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| >>>Sixth | Post |
I guess I just wanted to share my thought process on creating a character.
I'm not a super expert professional, but I know people like my designs so heres a explanation of what I do:
Gather reference materials, brainstorm themes and ideas, form a general idea of age, appearance, personality etc.
There's no limit to the depth you can go into with brainstorming, just be cautious of overwhelming urself and not finishing the project.
Draw a few poses that matches the personality of the character, maybe an interaction that is relevent to the world of the character.
Maybe find a character design template on the internet or I might make my own and post it here.
Some people might wonder where to get their inspiration and I just say find what you are passionate about and start from there.
Do you really like food? Maybe a chef character, or a food based character. If you like politics,
maybe make the character have some societal issue affect them.
I think an important part of any good character is having conflict/contrasting themes in their design (internally and externally).
While it seems cruel, it gives them a dimensionality that is relatable and can help the plot or is otherwise an unexpected flavor in the story.
Some examples of this might be giving them a calm design and anger issues, or feminine design but masculine/ gentleman behavior.
It can be like they yearn to be physical but are limited in movement by a disease or they are super athletic but brain dead.
Another one might be they dream of becoming a dazzling stage performer but they exist in a society that bans performances.
Another thing I want to add is if the character has some virality triggers or visual hooks. This is just something I made up but I find it in a lot on modern branded personality/ character content.
Some examples might be the antenna on Pikmans or Pikachus pointy ears and lightning bolt tail.
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Just dumping my fav images here
This one just has nice contrast, and I think showing part of the upper torso, chest abdomen area
is appealing (??) I tend to de drawn towards androgynous male figures...
What can i say except I like horns. also the detail on this one is so aaaaa♡♡♡
Shal fen Shal has one of the simplest yet attractive character design bc just look at his eyes.
How do you not fall in love with this guy.
Lelouch and the other characters in the anime have the best expressions in any anime imo, its like a good balance between expressions and aesthetic which
is a hard skill to master in drawing.I think part of it comes from the hard cell shading which is lends well to the dramatic story.
One reason I think cell shading is difficult is because it requires a good foundation of facial anatomy.
Not only that but they managed to apply it to a heavily stylized character consistently.
below is the link to the interview
https://fullfrontal.moe/goro-taniguchi-interview/
There's so much past culture and history, but people don't engage with it or learn from it, or even be interested in modern politics, make social commentary
etc with the technologies we have today to make content. ie we aren't using our full potential.
| 07 | 11 | 2025 | evening |
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It feels sooo good when I do my favorite things in one day: Excercise, sauna, bath and drawing.
Maybe one day I can figure out three things or four different things. If I can help people I could be happier somehow.
I should make a yt video; I've been thinking of making a "how to draw pretty men" video because I studied that quite exclusively for a while.
I gotta learn more about things I enjoy, the problem is idk what I like rn (in the context of drawing at least)
I feel like the most important thing is to ephasize the gaze, like its really hot whe the guy looks at me in a super focused way, like a predator or something.
I can literally just spend a whole day adjusting the parts on the face because its so finnicky.
Like move the eyes, and then you have to move the whole face to stay proportional
There's also so few artists that I like how they draw guys torsos, bc its v hard to make it stylized and look good.
I think how I like it is when the torso is slightly longer than average and the shoulder to hip taper isnt so extreme, but its slender overall.
I'm still figuring out shoulders and joints.
| 07 | 09 | 2025 | evening |
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Excercise makes me happier. Playing video games I dont necessarily want to play makes me depressed. Losing weight makes me happy.
I lost 10 lbs since march of this year apparently. Maybe I can lose 10 more by my birthday and then wear the cute clothes I always wanted to wear.
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Today I went to a mall with my neice and did some window shopping. I wish I was cute enough to look good in the clothes. Maybe one day.
I got a yellow frog keychain for my bag. It reverses into a tadpole.
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Hello, welcome to my first post. Idk what to write.
I guess I'm just lonely...
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